A little bit about me

My name is Ashley. I am 26 years old. A single mom of one very handsome 4 year old boy Giovanni Jerome who is my heart and my world. I am strong and stubborn and I keep alot of things held so deep inside me. I put on this mask that everything is ok but that is because I feel it is better off this way. Nobody truly and honestly understands me. They say they do but I feel like majority of people just try to tell you things they think you want to hear so they can get what they want out of you or from you. Like giving you false hope. I am an addict in recovery of a little over a year. I always say I have no shame in my game. I am who I am and have done the things I have done both good and bad and the bad I cannot take back but none of us can and none of us are perfect. We are each our own person and we were each made differently for a reason because that is what makes you YOU. You can be anything or do anything you want as long as you put your mind to it. Just remember one thing always is that you came into this world alone and will leave out of it just the same, nobody is going with you when it is your time so make the best of this shitty ass crazy ass life and try your best to love yourself because you are beautiful just the way you are!

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About Safe Haven

Safe space Safe place

My purpose behind creating this website was to be able to create something where every one and anyone; doesn't matter your age, race, gender, or sexual preference, this is a safe place and space you feel you can really be yourself and get advice if needed. It's anonymous! I personally am one of those people who doesn't feel like anyone truly or fully understands me. I feel different then most people like I just can't clique with most others like maybe I wasn't supposed to be human sometimes. I am also one to hold everything deep inside me and not share anything with anyone because I feel I will be a problem or people will think I'm crazy or stupid for what is bothering me or for the way that I feel or think. So every one who uses this site I want to feel nothing but comfortable and like you finally found a place that you can be just who you are and be ok.

Feel free to drop any comments at the very bottom of the page regarding what you think of the site and maybe even what you think could be added or improved. Thanks!

You are stronger than you think

We are all only human

Nobody is perfect

Just being me

I just want to be myself without judgement

This is going to sound extremely screwed up but I hate people honestly. The human race is unkind, disrespectful, ignorant, stupid, and very judgmental. I hate it. I hate talking to people because many times I have done so and later on if we get in a huge fight they go throwing my personal life and past into my face or if we stop talking they feel the need to go and tell everyone everything about me spreading my personal business so easily like butter on bread. That is why you know people will say to me why don't you talk about things that are bothering you? Well my answer to that is because everytime I do somebody uses it against me or doesn't understand me or wants to just ignore the fact of what I say for what ever reason. Whether it's just because their an ignorant human being or because they simply don't care. But too many times I also find myself being there for everyone else but feel as though nobody wants to be there for me or listen to what I have to say. Even though I may feel this way I will still always be there for others. It's just part of my blood; it's just who I am honestly.

addiction

Doesn't matter what you have done. That does not define who you are.

I hate that when people hear someone does heroin that they are like oh my god that is horrible, that person is dirty and grimey, that person is a fucked up individual for even thinking about touching heroin. Fuck you is what I have to say to anyone who feels that way or wants to think that way. I'm sorry but nobody is perfect and don't get me wrong we are all definetely entitled to our own opinions but some things I think are just ignorance more than anything. Because if you actually knew that person or even have went through any form of addiction which I am sure everyone has you would know that the addiction takes over and it's not truly who that person is. I believe everything is a choice in the beginning yes but there's a deep dark secret reason behind why people choose to pick up what they do to cover up feeling their feelings and emotions. Just because someone does heroin doesn't mean just because you "only over eat" that your some how better than they are. Just because food is not a chemical that does not mean it is good for your body to consume too much of it. Just because someone chooses to be a prostitute and you choose to use back page doesn't mean you are any better then them just because you do it more descretely with going through the internet versus walking the street in public where everyone can see does not mean one is any better than the other. Whether it's exercise, food, gambling, money, stealing, prostitution, cutting, drugs, alcohol......does not matter because it can all be an addiction and addiction isn't just a choice. Sure like I said initially you try it to try it but then it makes you feel better and fills the voids of everything that you need filled and you then continue to slowly but surely do it more and more often until it becomes an everyday thing. You don't just become an addict in 24 hours. So don't be so quick to judge because nobody is perfect and we are all unique in our own ways and have our own issues going on big and small. Live.Love.Laugh

BEING AN ADDICT

Don't discriminate against anyone until you have walked a day in their shoes

A DAY IN THE LIFE OF BEING AN ADDICT AND THEN FINDING RECOVERY

It's a rough journey but there is light at the end of the tunnel, just listen he will tell you all about it

Depression & Anxiety

It's a bitch

Having anxiety or depression or both sucks. Neither one is better then the other and if you have both like myself, it is fucking shitty. Anxiety makes you anxious, nervous, feel uneasy, and if you start having an anxiety attack it feels like your whole world is crashing down upon your chest crushing it and making it hard to breath while sweating and you just need to escape your own body. It's just like an overall shitty and overwhelming uncontrollable feeling when it happens. For me the one thing that helps me big time if my body starts freaking out and having an anxiety attack is just to step outside into the fresh air and take some good deep breaths. Everybody has their own thing that works though but that's just what I do, speaking for myself. Drop some comments at the very bottom of the page or scroll up towards the top of the page and drop a message letting me know what your tips and tricks are on handling your depression or anxiety. Know you are not alone and that their are people like myself out there that can relate. Talk to someone or use this site to vent and get things off your chest or ask for help or advice if you need it because it's anonymous and I do not want anyone to feel like they are alone in any aspect of their life.

WE ALL HAVE BATTLE SCARS

JUST CLOSE YOUR EYES AND LISTEN

Being a single parent

Life throws you curve balls sometimes you just have to learn to work around the bullshit

I for one am a single mother and lots of you out there are also single mothers or fathers or maybe your even grandparents who are raising your grandchildren alone with no help from the parents. This is yet another thing that happens more often than not that sucks big time and is unfair it really is. Like myself for instance, when it first became official that I was in fact a full on single parent I was like "why me?"; "why do shitty things always seem to happen to me?". Becoming a single parent was like putting the icing on the cake to my life. It was like a huge and hard wave that came crashing upon me. Felt like an enormous amount of weight being pushed upon my chest and I couldn't breath with a loss for words. Like I was stuck in space and didn't know which way was up which way was down. But I always say everything happens for a reason and you just have to take everything that gets thrown at you whether it is good or bad and make the most of it and keep moving your feet forward because staying in the same place or wallowing in your own sorrow forever is not going to do anything. At the end of the day that child or those children need you; they need somebody. Ultimately it is the other person/persons loss to choose not to be apart of their life. It's like you wish you could change people but we are all smart enough by now in our lives that we know that is just not realistic or possible because people are who they are and that is just it. They can only change themselves but only if they are willing to do so or want that for themselves. It is what it is but just know you are not alone in any of this and you have to try to remain strong each and every day for that child or those children. You can do it!

Being a parent

Love

I want to know your thoughts....

Do you believe there is a such thing as true love?

I mean at one point and time in my life for a very brief moment of my life I did think there was a such thing as true love but all that got ripped right out from in front of me to be shown that it was just the devil wearing a mask to put on this facade of something beautiful and wonderful and comforting. After that was ripped out from in front of me it is hard for me to believe that true love is a for real thing.